Scattered Rainstorms
stream of consciousness of an insane, wide-eyed bookworm.
"everything is surprising, rightly seen." -A.S. Byatt
Scattered Rainstorms
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I still love the people I’ve lovedeven if I cross the street to avoid them.
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"I almost miss the sound of your voice but know that the rain
outside my window will suffice for tonight.
I’m not drunk yet, but we haven’t spoken in months now
and I wanted to tell you that someone threw a bouquet of roses
in the trash bin on the corner of my street, and I wanted to cry
because, because —
well,
you know exactly why.

And, I guess I’m calling because only you understand
how that would break my heart.

I’m running out of things to say. My gas is running on empty.
I’ve stopped stealing pages out of poetry books, but last week I pocketed a thesaurus
and looked for synonyms for you but could only find rain and more rain
and a thunderstorm that sounded like glass, like crystal, like an orchestra.

I wanted to tell you that I’m not afraid of being moved anymore;
Not afraid of this heart packing up its things and flying transcontinental
with only a wool coat and a pocket with a folded-up address inside.

I’ve saved up enough money to disappear.
I know you never thought the day would come.

Do you remember when we said goodbye and promised that
it was only for then? It’s been years since I last saw you, years
since we last have spoken.

Sometimes, it gets quiet enough that I can hear the cicadas rubbing their thighs
against each other’s.

I’ve forgotten almost everything about you already, except that
your skin was soft, like the belly of a peach, and
how you would laugh,
making fun of me for the way I pronounced almonds
like I was falling in love
with language."
Shinji Moon, “If I Left You A Voicemail This Would Be It” (via language-barriers)
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"In a different world, that could have been us. And we will never know whether it is a good thing or a bad thing that it isn’t."
A.M. (via words-from-books)
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"His eyes were the same colour as the sea in a postcard someone sends you when they love you, but not enough to stay."
Warsan Shire (via midnightshivers)
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birdasaurus:

Consider the Wldflwrs
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hplyrikz:

I can relate to this
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